1. How does your boyfriend rank in kissing?
Erm...I don't have a boyfriend...But if I did, he would be damn good after all our practice *beam*

2. What have you learned about serious relationships?
That there will always be uncertainty. No matter how serious a relationship, when circumstance happens the relationship can go either way.

3. Do you think opposites attract?
I think they do because most people feel a need to make up for the things they lack but these sorts of attractions don't last very long. Eventually real life will make you realise that the very thing you were once so attracted to has become repulsive.

4. What's the relationship you have with your current date?
Erm...I'd come up with a witty response but at this time of year it's depressing, so I'm just gonna say that I don't have a date thus the relationship is non-existent.

5. Would you want a big family someday?
Not really. I prefer a small family but I will definitely have lots of dogs.

6. What would you most like to change about yourself, if anything?
I'd like to be able to focus better. I have a very short attention span and though some people may be able to channel that disadvantage into creative energy, I can not. All I get out of this disability is half stories. I need to learn to focus....

7. What's your ideal date?
One where I learn something while still having an enjoyable time. The time, the place, the ambience, it all doesn't really matter as long as we can talk.

8. What's your date like?
My date needs to be smart. He has to be able to stimulate me in the non-sexual sense before he can stimulate me in that other sense.

9. Do you agree that love stops you from thinking reasonably?
I dunno. I like to think that hormones is what stops me from thinking reasonably and that love is a whole lot more rational, a whole lot more in-control of things.

10. What's the craziest thing that you have ever done for love?
Letting him in. I know...Mundane as it sounds, at the moment, the craziest thing I have done and would do for love is to let the person into my life.

11. Torn between love and your career. What would you choose?
I've never been in that position before because I'm not exactly on the career path yet. Maybe ask me this question again in a year.

12. Do you think it's hard work being a girl?
No, not really. In this time and age, being a girl is no longer the main worry. It's more about being a human being. Ya, we still need to know how to look good and cook and love kids but now expectation is on the men as well. Modern day society has shifted and the gender bias card hardly comes up anymore, not that it doesn't but it's hardly an issue anymore. What is is how we function as humans. How we, as individuals, count success. Trying to be a useful human being is hard work.

13. Do you think love is a fantasy?
Love is a fantasy when you don't have it. It becomes a reality when you're in it...I dunno. I prefer reality to fantasy. It's so much more unexpected and sometimes disappointing but at least it's real. I want my love to be a reality...For it to feel real rather than having my fantasies realised. I think I'm not answering the question...Someone needs to help me define 'fantasy'.

14. Would you give up your dreams for your true love?
If I have already met my true love, I think he would be a part of my dreams. Wait, by 'dreams' do you mean 'ambitions'? If it's 'ambitions' then it would depend on where I am in life. If I'm just starting out in my career life then I think I shouldn't give up on my quest for life's "true meaning" for my life's "true love". Ok...I'm not making sense. Let me make things a bit clearer. I won't know exactly what I'll do if I'm ever faced with a situation like such but if I am, inevitably it would depend on where my priorities lie. If it's my man or my career, ultimately they both affect my future and thus my dreams.

15. Define friendship.
Friendship is the fond relationship between two people drawn together by circumstance and kept together by love.

16. What are you afraid of?
I think I've answered this question quite a few times this year already. I fear lizards, exploding things, and being the last person left on earth.

17. In your opinion, why would women want to be skinny?
I think the people who are still trying to be skinny didn't get the latest memo from Hollywood. Update people, "skinny" is so out. "Healthy" is the new "skinny".

18. What mistake do you think women make in relationships?
The mistake of expectation. We tend to make plans and when they aren't fulfilled our expectations are crushed along with our spirit, along with the relationship. And by "we" I mean "me".

19. Is there anything you just don't get about guys?
How clueless they can be sometimes.

20. Last question, what do you look for in a guy?
Wow...So many things but right now I must say, being smart is a definite plus point.

I lost my voice.......

I laid off spicy foods, I laid off fried foods, I didn't have iced/cold drinks, I bought Difflam, and my greatest sacrifice to date, I laid off alcoholic drinks even though they came free.

Blady hell! This is so unfair...Now I'm stuck at home on a Saturday night...

So I'm gonna splash this page with my (and some other people's) shameless cam-whore antics because I'm too sick (and bored) to bother about the people who might judge me. Please don't judge me.

This is my friend, Li Yen. When we aren't bitching about people we know or pouring our hearts out to each other, we cam-whore.

This is my friend, Becky. She calls herself Wacky Beckie with good reasons.
This is my friend, Ally. She's the sweetest of us all. Sometimes, she meets us at our side...
This is my friend, Erin. We don't need photographers.
This is my friend Julie. We use props...A lot of the time...
This is me. I don't mind taking photos without anyone else in them.
Now go away or I'll be forced to slap you like the person who slapped me and thought it funny to take a photo of me then.I kid...

*Edited

What a weird morning...

I woke up late, left the house late, had to turn back halfway coz I forgot my phone, and I still got to the LRT station on time. There was no one waiting in the toilet that's usually crowded, no one on the train fighting for a seat ala Musical Chairs. I had steaming-hot porridge and bubbling-hot coffee for breakfast and still I got onto the LRT without breaking a sweat.

It's a weird morning...

So anyway, you know the windowed ends of the LRT trains that are damn nice to stand at coz of the flat covered surface area? It's good for leaning on while staring out into the erm...outside of the train. So this guy was standing there, he had his newspaper spread out in front of him. This pissy looking lady walks in at the next station, goes up beside him like she knew him, said "Ahem, excuse me", squeezed by him, pushed her laptop bag beside him onto the flat surface thing/makeshift table, and when I thought she was going to step away, she stayed! Arms folded and feet tapping looking like she deserved to be there much more than he. Mind you that space was only big enough for one person, what more a person with his newspaper spread out in front of him. Poor guy...He looked so confused. And she was still looking pissy. And she wasn't hot. I mean, oklah there shouldn't be double standards for hot people but hot people look better doing bitchy things, therefore less infuriating.

So yea, it's a weird morning.

On a nicer, non-offensive note, I got my leave approved! Now it's just a matter of deciding where to go. So while I'm still in this holiday state of mind, let me share with you fun stories of stuff that happened on my past vacations. Stories of incidents that made the getaways that much more fun.

So during my trip to Langkawi, we went island hopping and the last stop was this gorgeous beach stretch but the stupid thing was, they brought us there during low tide. Idiots. So after we were done doing our thing on the beach, I guess we went back to the pier earlier than the Boat-man expected coz he wasn't there. We were waiting around when this one particular male friend and I decided to go look again at the docked boats to double-check if any among them was ours. It was hard to tell coz all the boats looked somewhat similar. We were standing there on the elevated pier, peering at the covered boats when I yelled "Abang Boat" in a girly, sing-songy, flirty manner and then I floated away, out of sight of the many Abang Boats there while my one particular male friend stood there in shock and horror as they stared up at him. Amusing much.

And then there was this other time at Redang when we attempted to steal beer from the bar's beer keg. Not that we couldn't pay for it...The bar closed too early. And we were thirsty. And some smart dude brought a half bottle of Chivas. Not a full bottle, a half bottle. Slightly less than half in fact. Which we finished in an hour or two. Anyway, twas a failed attempt. The keg was locked. Boo!

Anyway, I'm bored of telling stories already so I'm stopping.

What a pleasant drive *grin*.

I know I know...There's supposed to be roadblocks all over KL and traffic's supposed to be hell-ish but it's only crazy on the trunk roads. The roadblocks are merely filtering traffic going into KL so within KL, NO JAM!!

HAHA! It only took me half an hour to get to the office. It was like driving in KL on a Sunday. However, I did leave my house a lot earlier than I would've liked. I was anticipating an insane jam but...HAHAHA! NO JAM! Anyway, I feel bad for those who got stuck in the jam. I was listening to the radio all morning for traffic updates and avoided the roads that were blocked. Once again, the Eastin highway heading towards KL was blocked. A 5 lane road reduced to 1 lane. Traffic was backed-up all the way to The Curve! I know it's terribly mean of me but I can't help it. I always get a kind of satisfaction from watching people get stuck in a jam while I'm driving free...I do feel bad for them though...In a "I'm so glad I'm not in your position" way.

We'll see how traffic's like when I go home tonight.

HOT!!!

What a bad day to be walking to work...At 9.30 in the morning the sun was already working at maximum capacity. I could have just curled up into a sweaty ball and died...I was so tempted to start stripping and possibly sunbathe? But I didn't...

Anyway, a few weeks back I went for this Tommy Hilfiger fragrance launch and I was in complete awe. The way they setup the place was gorgeous! They converted a boring training room into a beautiful bedroom set. It was like a dream wedding...And now it is my dream wedding...Seriously, out of all the events I've been to, this one was the most impressive. Check out these media photos.


And then there were cute, little souvenirs laid out for us to bring home.

What a horribly dull day.

Everyone's falling sick in the office. The weather is depressing. My MP3 player only has a 50 song capacity. I have no credit. I'm stuck doing event listings all day. My nasi goreng ayam didn't have enough Thai Chili Sauce on it. My last night didn't have enough drinks in it.

Sigh...I'm not liking this day at all. There have been no highlights to today...None whatsoever! No fun events to attend over the weekend...Sigh.

How awfully dull...

Last night was the worst night of my life!

It was 12.10am when I decided to watch just one more episode of Friends, Season 6, episode 3. I went up to my room at 12.30am. As I opened my bedroom door, my hand robotically reached for the light and fan switch. It took half a second before light filled the room and then, "AHHHHH!", I screamed. The dark, oval form laying on my bed scampered away to hide. It laid rest behind my radio remote controller which was also on my bed.

"HONG KHENGGGG!!!", I screamed as if I got news that someone close had just died. I started banging on his door when it flung open and an agitated looking brother stumbled out. "THERE'SACOCKROACHINMYROOMTHERE'SACOCKROACHINMYROOMTHERE'SACOCKROACHINMYROOM!"

"Aiyah", my brother exhaled in exasperation. "What do you want me to do about it?" he asked.

"KILLITKILLITKILLIT!!!" I screamed.

My brother suggested he grab the roach with a plastic bag. I suggested he use a magazine to sweep that menacing, winged thing along with my remote controller into my waste paper basket that was lined with a garbage bag, pick out the remote controller and then tie up the bag. He took my suggestion. It seemed like a flawless plan.

My brother, coincidentally, picked up a KLue magazine dated July, 2006. "Hey, I have a KLue magazine!", I enthused half surprised half amused. My brother approached the thing in hiding, full of caution. And then in one swift motion, he swept the controller into the bin and the roach scuttled to the side of the bed, halted for a moment and then was gone never to be seen again.

"AAAAHHHHHHHHH!!" I squealed. "OHMYGODOHMYGODOHMYGOD! Where the hell did it go?"

We spent the next 20 minutes flinging clothes and pillows aside. We lifted up the mattress, we used two flashlights to scour every inch of the floor , every corner. Nothing moved.

"There's nothing more we can do. We'll never find it now", my brother said as he left the room.

I cleaned the clothes off my floor, I put the pillows back on my bed, I changed into my sleeping attire and I went to bed with my lights on.

It was the worst night of my life. I kept waking up to check if the cockroach was lying beside me. My legs kept itching, thinking the roach was crawling on it.

I'm never bringing food into my room ever again.

Oklar so I'm really bored at work right now. I just wrote the dullest thing in the world...A Ruums KL writeup... Ok, so maybe it's not the dullest thing but I'm really sleepy...So thanks Rin, I took this off your page.

1. What is in the back of your mind right now?
- What I'm gonna do tonight.

2. When was the last time you threw up?
- HAHA! Maybe last week...I won't say why...

3. What’s your favourite curse word?
- I don't believe in curse words. They're all words, just some used in a harsher fashion.

4. Name one person who made you smile this morning?
- Andrew.

5. What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
- Taking too long a shower.

6. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
- I was writing Yen a 'panjang-lebar' comment on her blog but then I accidentally closed the page before posting it. I don't plan on writing it again...Sorry girl...The 'emo' was in the moment.

7. If you could marry any celebrity ever who would it be?
- Brandon Boyd. Brooding rock musicians are hott.

8. Have you ever been to a strip club?
- No.

9. What is the last thing you said aloud?
- "How do you test the test site?"

10. What is the best ice cream flavor?
- Lychee...But then that's more of a non-cream based ice thing...I forgot the word for it. Anything chocolate's good.

11. What are you wearing right now?
- Racer back top and a skirt.

12. Last food you ate?
- Nasi goreng ayam.

13. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
- Er...Not that I can think of...No, I don't think so.

14. When was the last time you ran?
- Last week.

15. What’s the last sporting event you watched?
- Haha! I think it was this year's Japan GT. Are Mat Rempit gatherings considered a sporting event?

16. What was the last thing you had to drink?
- Water.

17. Last movie you saw?
- I Now Pronounce You Chuck & Larry...I know, I know...I'm really outdated...

18. Last person who you sent a message to on myspace
- I don't have myspace.

19. Ever gone camping?
- I don't think so.

20. Were you ever an honor roll student in school?
- Nope.

21. Do you like sushi?
- Love love love it. Yesterday I went for the RedBox Plus opening at Pavilion, they prepared this buffet for the media. They had a sushi bar where you place your order and the chef makes it on the spot for you. Ohhh...Delightful.

22. Do you drink your soda from a straw?
- I try to as much as I can...Don't intend to lose my front teeth to gas.

25. What did your last outgoing text say?
- Something about Stardust.

26. Are you someone’s best friend?
- Erm...I wouldn't know.

27. Where is your mom right now?
- On her way home from work.

28. What color is your watch?
- The one I'm wearing has a rubber purple/gray strap with a fat silver frame around the face.

29. What do you think of when you think of Australia?
- Those bastards stole my friends from me.

30. Ever ridden on a roller coaster?
- Of course.

33. What is your birthstone?
- Amethyst.

34. Do you go in a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?
- Both but mostly drive thru now. My daily nugget fix goes well with lazing in front of the TV.

35. What does your first memory of your sister/brother involve?
- I really don't know which was first. My childhood memories don't really follow a timeline. I remember when we were still in our Kepong house, we used to sleep in the same room. We had this insanely noisy backdoor neighbour who blasted his radio every night when we were about to sleep. My bro and I used to go up to our window and yell at him to shut up and then we'll run away.

36. Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
- Uncertainty.

37. Last phone call?
- That I made or I received?

38. Are you allergic to anything?
- Mushrooms and humidity. They both give me rashes just that one is potentially deadly.

39.Favourite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
- My flip flops.

40. What is one thing you’ve learned about life recently?
- My parents love me. It's something you never stop learning.

41. Are you jealous of anyone?
- Yes...I'm jealous of anyone who has a car.

42. Is anyone jealous of you?
- Er...I really wouldn't know.

43. Do you own an iPod?
- Nope. I wish I did though. HINT!

44. Do any of your friends have children?
- Yup.

45. Do you like anyone right now?
- Sure.

46. What color are your eyes?
- Brown.

49. Have you ever been to Six Flags?
- Nope.

50. How did you get one of your scars?
- One I got when I almost got stung by a jellyfish. I managed to get out of the water in time but I scraped my elbow on barnacles.

51. Do you enjoy your personality?
- Haha! Sometimes...It's as amusing to me as it is to others. Sometimes not so much coz I can be really quiet when I'm not in the mood...It's as un-amusing to me as it is to others.

52. Are sunsets romantic?
- Yea...Terribly. Depends on the place though

53. Is your school ghetto?
- Nope. Like Erin said, my school is the elite public high school but I guess there were some pretty ghetto personalities there.

54. How’s the weather?
- Can't tell. I'm indoors right now. From the looks of it, glum.

55. Are you easily offended?
- Not really. I like to think that I have a sense of humor.

56. Where’s your favourite vacation spot?
- Genting! Oklar...Maybe not a vacation spot. More like a getaway spot. I'd like any vacation spot that comes with a swanky hotel.

57. What is the best place to get a tattoo?
- Best place to get it done in or best place to get it done on? There's a pretty reputable place in Sungei Wang. Pay a bit more but they have excellent customer service.

58. Have you ever accidentally thought someone was a guy, but they were a girl? Or vice versa?
- Haha! All the freakin time!!

59. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
- I bite.

60. Who’s the weirdest person you’ve ever met? What’s so strange about them?
- There was this one guy in my IT class last semester, maybe it's the culture difference. I dunno...He would leech onto one person/group and follow them around as if he was invited. And he'll say the weirdest things. He used to sit next to me and ask endless questions while the lecturer was teaching until I myself couldn't follow what the lecturer was talking about. If I fail, I blame him.

So it's Thursday...

I normally look forward to Thursday coz even though I have to wake up early and attend a full day of classes, I'm comforted by the fact that I have my entire Friday free. I wake up in the afternoon, I eat Maggi Mee for lunch, I laze in front of the TV watching DVD serials and sitcoms, I go out for dinner, I go shopping or yum cha-ing or jogging...I come home late and then sleep till the next morning. That's it...Friday's gone without a care in the world.

It's Thursday now and I'm REALLY not happy...

I have to come in for work tomorrow... =(
Cannot go ladies night whatevers...
Cannot go late night movies...
Cannot go out yum cha...
Cannot stay up till late late late watching Friends...
Sigh...

Anyway, my dad's in Miri till Sunday so I have his car to drive to work with. It's great!! It only takes me about slightly less than an hour to get to work as opposed to an hour and a half when I'm taking public transport and feet. And I arrive at work all fresh and erm...I was about to say cheery but really, I'm still sleepy. Haha!

I wish I had photos here in the office to upload...But I don't...So I'm done...

For the next two months, I am interning at KLue magazine.

I KNOW!! When I got the internship, I was ecstatic. I was beyond ecstatic. I was erm...very very ecstatic? :-Þ

Yesterday was my 1st day. Their office is on Jalan Bukit Bintang and since I don't have a car, my only means of transportation there is the public kind. I guess there are both good things and bad things about public transport.

Yesterday was horrible! I was like this insane noob on the LRT. I didn't know how to push and shove my way through the mass of people, I couldn't arrange myself to reach any poles or seats or whatever-not stuff I could use to stabilize myself. The thing is, if the train is empty, you can stand stable coz there's enough space to spread your legs or whatever. But when the train is packed, there's no leg room, there's no arm room...There's NO room. So yesterday I was falling all over the place. I fell on people, I fell on bags, I stepped on toes and shopping bags...But today was great! I learnt that the only way to get around the KL/PJ working folk is to be selfish. Don't care who's coming on board, make sure you have your space near a pole or those railing strap things...

Anyway, the good thing is, I have to take a 20 minute walk from the Bukit Bintang monorail station to reach the office. At least I'm fulfilling my workout quota coz by the time I'm home from work, I guarantee you I won't find the discipline or the energy to go jogging.

I'm writing this from my desk so, back to work =)

I have stories about places I've been to but I'll tell them when I'm in the mood. So I've been tagged...Sorry I took awhile Ally.


[one] what is your natural hair color?
honestly:- Brown

[two] where was your default picture taken?
honestly:- Erm...The pictures in my header are mostly taken in my room, one in a car, one in Shook, and the other in a home studio

[three] what's your middle name?
honestly:- I don't think I have one

[four] your current relationship status?
honestly:- Don't wanna talk about it

[five] does your crush like you back?
honestly:- What a weird thing to ask

[six] what is your current mood?
honestly:- Restless

[eight] What makes you happy?
honestly:- Good music and a cool breeze

[ten] if you could go back in time and change something, what you would change?
honestly:- My choice of clothing

[eleven] if you must be an animal for one day, what would you be?
honestly:- A polar bear

[twelve] ever had a near death experience?
honestly:- There was this one time, nothing happened but if something had happened, I think I would've died...or been seriously injured

[thirteen] something you do a lot?
honestly:- Drink water

[fourteen] the song stuck in your head?
honestly:- Michael BuBle - Kissing A Fool

[fifteen] who did you copy and paste this from?
honestly:- Ally dear

[sixteen] name someone with the same birthday as you?
honestly:- Diane

[seventeen] when was the last time you cried?
honestly:- Yesterday...I was watching the final few episodes of Winter Sonata

[Eighteen] have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
honestly:- Yup

[nineteen] if you could have one super power what would it be?
honestly:- It'll be awesome if I could do super kung-fu moves...or maybe just fly...or telekinesis

[twenty] what's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
honestly:- The eyes

[twenty-one] what do you usually order from starbucks?
honestly:- Hehe the non-coffee raspberry frap. But now they've changed it to this raspberry blackcurrant tea thing that tastes disgusting...

[twenty-two] what's your biggest secret?
honestly:- I can't recall anything now...Haha I guess it's such a big secret that it's kept even from me

[twenty-three] favorite color?
honestly:- Purple...and red...and black

[twenty-four] when was the last time you lied?
honestly:- Just now when I was getting my haircut. It's Nick's off-day today and the guy who cut my hair asked if I came for Nick. I said not really...but I really did go all the way there for Nick. Really.

[twenty-five] do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
honestly:- Of course! Those old Disney classics are the best...I love Tom & Jerry and Disney's Silly Symphonies.

[twenty-six] what are you eating or drinking at the moment?
honestly:- Chinese tea

[twenty-seven] do you want to learn to speak any other language? if so, what?
honestly:- Ya. I'd love to learn Korean

[twenty-eight] what's your favourite smell?
honestly:- Polo Blue is a damn turn-on

[twenty-nine] if you could describe your life in ONE word what would it be?
honestly:- Blessed

[thirty] when was the last time you gave/received a hug?
honestly:- Possibly a week ago...Unless hugging myself counts. If it does then, yesterday.

[thirty-one] have you ever been kissed in the rain?
honestly:- I can't remember la. Maybe not heavy rain...Lol I can't remember.

[thirty-two] what are you thinking about right now?
honestly:- Oddly enough, food and peeing

[thirty-three] what should you be doing?
honestly:- Office work but wait la

[thirty-four] what was the last thing that made you upset/angry?
honestly:- The damn Raoul sale not there anymore when I went there fully prepared for some serious purchasing.

[thirty-five] how often do you pray?
honestly:- All the time

[thirty-six] do you like working in the yard?
honestly:- Erm...Not particularly...Who does?

[thirty-seven] if you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
honestly:- I have no idea.....Bloom coz in order to get it I'll have to be married to Orlando. Or Bae coz Yong Joon is hotness

[thirty-eight] do you act differently around your crush?
honestly:- Yea I guess so...Unintentionally of course.

[thirty-nine] name one song that reminds you of an ex?
honestly:- Michelle Branch - Something To Sleep To

I wonder if we ever truly appreciate what we have.

I see something nice, I save up to buy it, I buy it, and then a month later I want something else. Fine, I guess that's materialism. But then if this is an inevitable cycle, it should apply in all other areas of life because life is an intertwining web whereby each movement affects the web as a whole.

There are people who go around saying they want someone to love, they find that someone, and then they do something stupid to lose that someone. Say they get a second chance, the typical expectation would be for them to cherish the moment, to be grateful and just sit down and not cause drama. Then why do they feel it absolutely necessary to carry on creating nonsense? Shouldn't they just be thankful for getting that second chance? Maybe it's human nature to constantly want things you can't have, to be bored with what you already have.

I saw this watch close to a year ago. It was almost as if the watch was made for me. Berry purple colored face, metal straps that collapsed in the most fluid motion, and best of all, it was within my purchasing power. I told myself "I absolutely need to get it". I got the money, went back to the shop 2 weeks later only to find it gone. I was so disappointed. I had the money but it was worthless. Half a year later, I saw the watch at a different shop. I was so excited but yet I hesitated. I didn't know if I wanted it anymore. I went back to the shop multiple times just to look at it, to try it on, but I never bought it. 3 months later the watch was gone...Again. I can't even begin to describe how I felt. It was a mixture of disappointment, relief, loss, depression.

Maybe that's the story of my life. I'll never know what it would've been like to own that watch. Maybe that watch would have finally satisfied my discontent. Maybe a few months down the line i would see another watch i'd like more than that watch and thus the cycle begins again.

this has been the best hellish weeks of my life!

semester's coming to a close so assignments are due, presentations are piling up, and my health is taking its timely vacation. the good thing about this semester is that all my assignments are due one week apart from the other so that gives me ample time to complete each of them...the bad thing about this semester, and oddly enough every previous semester, is that i'm a lazy shit and everything is done last minute thus the sleepless nights and the lowered immunity system. what makes these weeks great is the fact that so far, i'm feeling pretty confident about my work.

i went go-karting over the weekend and it was THE MOST exhilarating thing ever. i know i'm not very sporty...not that i'm not into sports, it's just that i haven't found my sport. anyway, go-karting was so much fun! the good thing about it is that it's the one place you can drive like a maniac and trash the turns without a second thought. the bad thing is that accidents tend to happen at those turns/chicanes. i was involved in an accident pileup and now i've got bruises all over my body. to add to the pain, every muscle on my arms have been over-strained. i can't even reach back to pull on a seatbelt. but i don't care...the pain is worth it. if all things go well, i'll go again this weekend.

so this morning i woke up with an unusual itch in my right eye. my first thoughts were "Oh crap...i caught it too." i had lunch with Andrew yesterday and he had an awfully awful red eye which, he claimed, he didn't rub into that state. i didn't believe him but...well...i always tend to be proven wrong. his condition had spread to his left eye by the night so he went to the Doc. he caught conjunctivitis..."Crap!" of all the damn bacterial infections to get, he contracts himself a highly contagious one...which i woke up to this morning. i guess the good thing about this is that the symptoms only became full-blown after i'd done my presentations. and the best thing was the hot guy at the clinic i went to to get my prescription meds.

we spend two thirds of our school days waiting.

i drove by my old school today and came past this corner of the curb i used to wait on for my parents to pick me up. it's kinda weird...most of my childhood memories involves me waiting for someone to pick me up.

i spent so much time waiting...after school, after tuition class, after piano class. wait for catered lunch to arrive. wait for dinner. wait for friends to arrive. wait for Astro to be installed. wait for SPCA dude to arrive. wait for pocket money. wait for driver's licence. wait for exams. wait for holidays. anyway, i'm getting a bit carried away. it's weird how we spend so much time waiting but yet all the fun things seem to happen while we're waiting. while waiting for the transporter lady to come pick me up from school, i've seen fights happen, i've seen people get stung by giant wasps, i've ran in the rain, i've missed the transporter lady and ended up having to walk home from school coz i didn't have money to get a cab and i swear, if i get on a bus, i'll get off in Ipoh.

and then you have parents who forget to pick you up...so there you are stupidly waiting for 2 hours thinking they're definitely on the way but they're really still in the office or already at home preparing dinner.

well...pleasant memories...

you know you're an alcoholic when you see something out of place and the first thing that comes to mind is that fateful night and a feeling of dread.


i was watching Sideways with my bro not too long ago. it has won lots of awards and every other review i've read praises the film to the nether worlds. we bought the DVD under the impression that it was gonna be really good. when it ended, my bro said it was the most boring movie he had ever seen. a Rotten Tomatoes review says it was "A brilliant exploration of life, longing and second chances." to me, the movie just made me wanna drink wine and eat. maybe that, on top of all its brilliance, too was intentional but seriously, the only way one would truly appreciate this movie to its full potential is to get a hold of a good bottle of wine and experience it the way the lead characters do. Swirl, sniff, and sip.

word of the day: nobody drinks alone

choices are a weird thing.

i wish i didn't have any...if only i had everything already planned out for me then i won't have to decide. i won't have to choose. someone i know said that choosing not to choose is also a choice. how very true...

if you know me at all, you'll know that i can't make decisions to save my life. whether it's about where to eat, what to do, who to invite...i'm terrible at it. i make plans on top of plans because i have no idea which i'd rather do and then end up blowing everyone off.

see, you get choices be it going drinking or watching a movie or going to Genting...we all get choices but when you can't decide which activity you'd rather take on, you just don't decide...and then one by one all your plans pass you by.

you think that everything will stay as it is but life will always find ways to kick you in the ass...maybe it's for your own good...maybe it's a much needed wake up call...

choices...i hate choices. you think you made the right choice and then that damn choice turns its ugly head and bites you in the nose.

word of the day: the horizon is an imaginary line that recedes as you approach it.

do you ever learn how to say 'no'?

i thought i was getting better at it until i did something so phenomenally stupid.....

i have no words to describe how stupid i feel...naive and stupid...

there i was in college, just after class, waiting for my friend to reach. i sat outside the library to do some work when this Nigerian guy came up to me and started talking to me. i'm generally friendly on first encounter, so we chatted. cut a long story short, due to my phenomenal stupidity, we exchanged numbers...i won't even try to defend myself by saying that i was cornered into it coz i basically have a problem with saying 'no'...

now i've got this annoying situation on my hands and no idea how to get out of it...he keeps calling me, i haven't answered any of the calls. maybe i can just wait till he wears out. maybe i can pick up one of his calls and scream at him. it's weird how these people seem to have so much time on their hands. calling every few hours, everyday..."Don't you have things to do??" i can almost see him bumming around at home, chilling on his beanbag while hitting 'redial' every so often.

seriously...i'm not amused...

what do you do when people start to mistake your guy friend as your something-more-than-a-friend?

maybe i've got this look that makes people think that i can't do anything on my own thus, i need a guy. maybe i'm too gullible. maybe it's a guy thing not to care about inconsequential matters (they won't actively do anything to treat the problem). whatever it is, it's annoying as heck.

people start making almost inappropriate comments that can easily be overlooked but seriously, it gets you thinking. "OMG do they think we're together??" and then the moment passes and it's too late to correct the situation. things go back to normal. but not really coz they start giving up their seats so that the both of you can sit together and then they talk amongst themselves purposely leaving you out of the conversation so that the both of you can have some time together and then they start asking you where [insert name of fake boyfriend] is whenever you're spotted without him around. it's almost as if they brought up that mildly inappropriate comment that first time as confirmation and because you ignored it, it's confirmed. "OMG WE'RE NOT TOGETHER!!" you would have loved to scream but then...that's just rude...

so what do you do when the people talking aren't people you know personally? even worse, what if the people talking are people you know whom didn't want to talk to you about it so instead went around spreading suspicions? do you wait for the phase to pass? stop seeing your fake boyfriend? get a real boyfriend?

word of the day: "[Being drunk in the middle of the day] is intoxicating. It's like having a secret."

in remembrance of my dear Bunion.

what a horrible way to go. my little Bunion escaped from his cage this afternoon and got bitten by his housemate, the German Shepherd. though of course this little Bunion of mine was anything but little. s/he grew up to be a huge, growling, biting, unfriendly rabbit that no one dared to go near to.

i wonder what happened. s/he was the sweetest thing during infancy...the cutest thing...the fuzziest thing...not smelly in the least...i just happened to contract a nasty skin fungus from the fur which was why i had to give him/her up after a few months along with Carat, the roommate.

i wish i could've kept them longer...i wish i could've seen Bunion at least one more time before he got taken away from the world.

how does rain make you feel?

halfway through my last class, it started raining. i had parked on that damn hill my college made into a carpark with which i still have undecided feelings about. that damn carpark is situated on a blady hill but yet it appears nearer to my class block than the parking lots on ground level (i wish i could paint a clearer picture but my ability to describe things seem, obviously, lacking).

that damn carpark on a hill is still halfway completed. the ground is made out of sand and these small greyish-white stones that look like granite...is it granite stones? if i'm wrong well, my entire rock vocabulary revolves and, with good reason, should only revolve around precious stones.

anyway, think about how insanely difficult it is to walk on stones...and then think about walking on them wearing heels...and then think about walking on them wearing heels as rain pours down, loosening the sand thus making every step a slippery comedy...

but rain has a weird calming effect once you're out of it. your clothes and hair is still a little damp, your books are all wet and wrinkly now, your shoes are all squeaky against the rubber mat of your car...you turn on the air-conditioning and as you quickly dry, your mood eases...driving in the midst of a thundering rainstorm with melancholic music blasting in the background (or presentground) somehow makes everything you've been worrying about seem insignificant. it's just you, John Mayer, and the long, near-invisible road ahead.


it's a terrifying feeling of mortality but it is that knowledge that our bodies are easily destructible that puts everything into perspective. worries about success, the future, and a hot-bod by August take a backseat as i pull into Centerpoint's chinese hawker place and 'ta pau' the lunch i had planned to skip.

word of the day: the Energizer bunny will die in 20 years

screw that....

how indescribably annoying. i so totally thought that i would at least get into Volvo's The Hunt finals but...sigh...i went through so much trouble! even getting the treasure map from the Volvo dealership was no easy task. the salesmen all just wanted to sell cars! i had to sit through 45 minutes worth of sales pitch before they were willing to hand me the map...and now i want an S40 T5...

aih...anyway, this is my long overdue update so...
my new semester started a few weeks back. everything's going ok for now...two of my language subjects are a great pain! it's so dry...but on a good note, remember my much earlier posts from when i just started up this blog, i was talking bout my writing lecturer who inspired me to produce quality work right? he stopped teaching coz he got promoted to head of creative arts...or something like that. we were all really disappointed at that time...he made a great teacher. imagine my utter surprise when he walked into my Public Speaking class. *grin* little miracles and little joys.

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.:Random thought:.
ever feel like there's just too few days in a week? i do...never would i have thought that i could ever feel that way but i guess life just loves rubbing things in your face. there's just so many things to do and there's so little time. you keep telling yourself that "i'll definitely have the time to do it next week" but you never get around to doing it. then comes the day when you finally realise that it's been 3 weeks and you still haven't worked off that extra piece of cake you had promised yourself that you would, and now you're a fat lump with uncontrollable bingeing urges. and by you, i mean me. aiyah...screw looking hot for Langkawi.

*sigh of relief*

my hell weeks have officially ended. i would love to rant about all the deadlines i had to meet in a single week but i don't think i will today...i don't feel like ranting. i'm overjoyed actually...everything has ended. the boiling water has cooled. *huge sigh of relief* i can now go out because i want to and not because i need to get away from responsibility.

Easter Sunrise service today was great. even though i was lacking sleep, waking up at 4am didn't feel like a chore. in fact, it was a joy. being in ministry for so long can sometimes become a routine. serving during Christmas and Easter can sometimes become so mechanical. celebrating these occasions become so customary. i don't presume it's wrong to feel that way but i think sometimes we need to realise that when we celebrate these occasions, when we serve, it is to the Mighty One. do you ever celebrate a person's birthday without inviting the birthday person? the normal answer would be "no" right? anyway, Easter today was a joy because i wanted to celebrate this day with my Lord and it made all the difference. He's wonderful company.

OMG!!!! i hate Adobe Illustrator!!!!

OMG!!!! if i actually knew how to use it, i won't be so aggravated but seriously, the only thing my Design lecturer thaught us to do was to make cartoon eyes...ok, maybe she taught us a lot more but who can retain so much in one seating??

sigh...i'm annoyed and slightly stressed out coz i gotta hand in that stupid magazine cover page i should be working on now. how the hell do i use Illustrator????

*happy thoughts....happy thoughts*

urgh...i have no happy thoughts...i AM thinking of eating ice cream though but it's a depressing thought coz there's no ice cream at home...

anyway, after 2 months of not blogging, this is the best i can do. toodles.