I wonder if we ever truly appreciate what we have.

I see something nice, I save up to buy it, I buy it, and then a month later I want something else. Fine, I guess that's materialism. But then if this is an inevitable cycle, it should apply in all other areas of life because life is an intertwining web whereby each movement affects the web as a whole.

There are people who go around saying they want someone to love, they find that someone, and then they do something stupid to lose that someone. Say they get a second chance, the typical expectation would be for them to cherish the moment, to be grateful and just sit down and not cause drama. Then why do they feel it absolutely necessary to carry on creating nonsense? Shouldn't they just be thankful for getting that second chance? Maybe it's human nature to constantly want things you can't have, to be bored with what you already have.

I saw this watch close to a year ago. It was almost as if the watch was made for me. Berry purple colored face, metal straps that collapsed in the most fluid motion, and best of all, it was within my purchasing power. I told myself "I absolutely need to get it". I got the money, went back to the shop 2 weeks later only to find it gone. I was so disappointed. I had the money but it was worthless. Half a year later, I saw the watch at a different shop. I was so excited but yet I hesitated. I didn't know if I wanted it anymore. I went back to the shop multiple times just to look at it, to try it on, but I never bought it. 3 months later the watch was gone...Again. I can't even begin to describe how I felt. It was a mixture of disappointment, relief, loss, depression.

Maybe that's the story of my life. I'll never know what it would've been like to own that watch. Maybe that watch would have finally satisfied my discontent. Maybe a few months down the line i would see another watch i'd like more than that watch and thus the cycle begins again.