It's weird how you wake up one day and suddenly feel like you want to grow things.

Every time I receive flowers they normally just sit on my table in its packaging for about two days and then it's upside down, hanging on my door, dead. I like keeping things in their packaging. It looks good... It's supposed to look that way so i suppose I shouldn't tamper with it.

The first thing I did that day was cut open the wrapping and put the flowers in a jug of water. It's nice to see things grow. Maybe I'm beginning to appreciate real beauty more than the beauty I want to see. Death is unchanging. I make it the way I want to see it and that's just how it will remain. Growth, however, is unpredictable. Some flowers bloom, some die, some stay the same. But what's beautiful about it is that I have absolutely no control over the way it reacts. I trim the stems, I provide the water, I pop in the Panadol (apparently Panadol helps to keep flowers looking fresh for longer), I nurture it but if it wants to die, I can't do anything about it... Maybe throw it away so I don't have to look at it but you get my point right?

So yea... Lately I've been finding a real joy in watching things grow.
So I'm feeling awfully upbeat...

I think it's got something to do with the fact that I'll be done with my internship come end of next week. I am overwhelmed with ideas and impulse thoughts about what I could do with this window opportunity. There's so many things I want to do, I want to try...

This is a conversation worth recording because it's something I don't think I'll ever hear again.

Me: You're doing biochem right?

Mr Mao: Have I ever told you that your memory is amazing?

Me: So far every single person I meet tells me I've got THE world's worst memory

Mr Mao: I think your memory is amazing. You remember things that I talk to you about that most people wouldn't remember

This here is proof that I have a perfectly fine memory. Anyone who wants to debunk this fact can use this rationale: It wasn't worth remembering. (I kid!)

Word of the day: To dream is to limit yourself from a world of limitless possibility