i want to be able to want
i want to be able to say things i don't mean
i want to be able to act without thinking
i want to not be wanted
i want to be able to see the things that i don't want to see
i want to be able to want you without having you
i want to be able to spend everything but still have everything
i want to have the moon that was promised me, though i may not know where to put it
i want you to know,
but i just need you to be