is ignorance really bliss?
if one is truly ingnorant, then one will not realise that one does not know and thus will not be able to be blissful. one can only say that 'ignorance is bliss' when one already knows and thus finds that one would have been better off not knowing.

what's a better choice? to live in the present or to live for the promise?
to live in the present would mean living impulsively on decisions made based on current wants and desires. to live for the promise would mean holding off for something that promises to be good or great but one can never be too sure. so how does one live? is it better to be constantly paying the price for ones actions or is it better to not have to pay at all but yet consciously wonder about the 'what ifs' and the 'maybes'.

BM subtitles guide : She has to attend a Brownie meeting. Adik perlu hadiri mesyuarat Si Coklat

word of the day : bob the bandana bandit

*this is last monday's post (13th Feb). don't ask me how i actually forgot to publish it...

my mom's car fell sick this morning...some more during rush hour...not very nice la...an accident almost happened coz of it...waited an hour for AAM to arrive...waited another half an hour at Tan Chong to see the doctor...but like all bad things, there's always a good outcome...i got to skip my 1st class! teehee!

so Valentine's Day is tomorrow...and i've got a date with my vocal teacher...who's a lady. but somehow, there's not much hype going on this year right..? or is it just me? well, maybe it's coz i don't hang out with people who are that into the whole Valentine's thing...or maybe it's coz i don't have a date...or maybe it's coz i grew up enough to realise the ridiculouness of Valentine's...or maybe it's coz all this while, even though i had dates, they weren't exactly terribly romantic.
my 1st Valentine made me wait a good 40 mins in a shopping complex for him to arrive...
my 2nd one gave me a devotional book
and my 3rd gave me a Swiss Card
though of course they all involved flowers and dinner but that's not the point.....

i feel that Valentine's Day has grown so way out of proportion that every girl has this idealistic dream of being asked out for a faint-gracefully-into-your-arms romantic night by an enchantingly charming guy who actually has the ability to hold doors open for girls. why should this one day be so different from others? why should this one day suddenly make brute beer chugging football watching men turn into someone with explicably good taste in clothes? how destroyed a girl must feel when she comes home from a Valentine's date that was completely ruined just coz he didn't pull out her chair for her...

i'm not bitter ok...i just think that Valentine's Day could be an increasingly unhealthy ritual for both men and women alike

i'm one helluva student!!

i slept through my snooze this morning and jumped out of bed half an hour late only to find that my bro had already left. thought i'll follow my mom to the office and skip my 1st class la...thank God i didn't...my bro came back after brekky so i went to coll on an empty stomach and an unadulterated bloodstream...

i came in to my Advertising class a few minutes late, found my seat next to a friend, only to be informed that we had a quiz that morning. well, maybe not informed...more like reminded. OMG!! i totally forgot! i didn't study shit!! i didn't print out any notes!!! OMG!!! ................what the heck la...i sat through it anyway...and screwed it up...

that's not even the best part...or the worst. anyway, my next class was an hour away and i had some finishing touches to do on my assignment. we went to McDs (so damn in need of my caffeine fix) for breakfast while we all finished up on our work. supposed to do some artistic stuff with lines/shapes/colours to create an illusion of distance, movement, and direction. mine was very simple but, hopefully, still delivered the message. so, we got carried away doing our stuff...reached class 15 minutes late. i thought we just had to hand in our work coz we already presented our rough sketches on Monday. i didn't blady know that we had to present our stuff again!!! OMG!!!! of all days to decide to dress down, i chose today...wearing a baggy shirt & jeans, i presented some pretty last minute stuff. looks like i won't be acing anything this sem.....

*sigh*

an e-mail a friend sent me cheered me up abit...roses and sparkly things, i like

my 21st birthday lasted 3 days!!

i made plans with Prav more than a month ago to go out on the 3rd to celebrate my day so after S'pore i came straight home, changed and went out again. he had planned to take me to a restaurant in Plaza Damas called er...Flamin J's? i think...anyway, at Plaza Damas, he wanted to check out this place called D Lounge coz the 1st time i went there, i thought it'll be a great place to have a private party or drinking sesh, or whatever la...coz it's cosy and quiet and not many ppl know about it. so he brought me in there and when i reached upstairs, SAPLAIS!! he'd organised a surprise party for me. hehe! such a sweetie =) i seriously didn't see it coming at all...he's never done anything like that for me before...thank you so so much honey pie!! and all those who were involved in the planning one way or another. thanx Rin & Ally!! thanx Roo Roo!! and thanx to all those who made the effort to come; Yong, Yee, Yap, Joel, Rachel, Ben, Zeb, Kurt, Sin Yee, Tasya. and those who wanted to come but couldn't make it; Tabby, Jen Jen, Derek, Chewie, Barr. huggy bugs!!! i lovies you!! *smile*



the 4th night is one i'll never forget. Roo Roo brought me out for dinner at Luna Bar. gorgeous place!!! but damn hard to find your way up. we had to take like 3 different elevators and 2 flights of stairs to get there. all worth it though. prices there are reasonable and the food is fantastic!! the mushrooms on the pizza were sooo succulent i almost gave into rashes (i'm allergic to mushrooms) coz they were soo good...the dessert was arguable though...it was a fully chocolate creation that consisted of a slice of RICH choc pie, some hazelnut choc ice cream thing, a shot glass of choc mousse and a shot glass of vanilla something. it was called Death By Chocolate and we really died...serious shit! we barely finished half... such a waste...
anyway, that wasn't the best part of the night. we finished dinner early so i decided i wanted to do something out of the norm and when Roo mentioned Genting, i immediately knew what i wanted to do. i drove up to Genting for the very 1st time and it was at night some more...the sharp bends took abit of getting used to but after awhile, DAMN FUN!!! at Genting we went into the casino for my very 1st time and lost 10 bucks. i can now say i did all this before 21.


the 5th was more relaxed. my bro took me on a mini shopping spree. thanx kheng! =) and then dinner was with me family at Shun, this Jap restaurant opposite Sheraton Subang.





oh! and thanx to all those who wished me through sms...i'm sorry if i didn't reply. have been really low on credit since CNY and roaming in S'pore.

thank you for making that day so special for me. it really helped me get over my getting-old-depression / midlife crisis...it did...

lots of love,
Ai Leen

Chinese New Year holidays have come and gone...and if felt too damn short. i didn't even have the opportunity to sleep at 6 and wake at 2...how can it possibly be considered a holiday eh?? but it's ok la...hectic as it was, it was great!

Singapore was great!! my family and i drove down on Wed and came back on Fri. we booked a room in JB so everytime we wanted to go into S'pore, we took a bus in. but really, it was ALOT more convenient than i thought. the buses use another road that bypasses all the heavy traffic at the customs office so, WOOHOO! i was amused to the bone when the bus just zoomed past the crazy long jam at customs...

on the 1st day, we reached JB at close to 2pm, checked in and was on our way to S'pore. i tell you, this trip was so super super last minute that we didn't even have time to change currency in PJ. we went to this Sungei Wang-like complex in JB to get some $ and off we went to catch the bus. me being me, i got clumsy...i like to believe that i'm not clumsy or careless or oblivious or blur but...well...reality is reality la. while running after this bus that was about to drive off, i kicked on a curb and sliced up my pinky toe. though of course nothing can stop a shopaholic from shopping so with a bleeding toe on heels, i limped my way to some great bargains!

day 2 was another full day of shopping. my mommy bought herself a new phone which i now want sooo badly!! it's a pink Nokia 6111. it's soo pretty....

day3 was check out day. my mom wasn't up for crossing over to S'pore again so we drove around JB looking for this majorly huge shopping complex that just recently opened. we found it and all i can say is "WAH"...it was huge...and it has every kind of shop you'll find in KL just that things that aren't on sale in KL are on sale there and there're always sizes!! yummy yummy...

we reached home at 7+ Fri night...

here's some piccies


word of the day : my infected affection

i'll be going to Singapore tomorrow with my family for a few days. got no more visiting to do i suppose...i should be feeling excited...think bout all the shopping i could do...why aren't i excited?? i've been wanting to go for crazy long just that i couldn't collect enough money and now that i'm finally going, everything's changed...

it's weird...i always thought that when you wait for something, the more you wait, the better it is when you finally get it...i've always believed in waiting. my motto is, "if you're not sure, just shut up and leave it alone". why? coz time seems to clarify things. time shows you the difference between your wants and your needs. time helps you to outweigh the good from the bad. time allows God to work instead of you.

but maybe there's an expiry date on anticipation...you wait and you wait and you wait without doin anything or acting on anything and then one day, you just bypass 'The Moment' totally unaware that things have suddenly changed...maybe for the better, maybe for the worst but definitely changed. how do you know when the right time is? is it possible to realise when change is happening and act on it to get a positive outcome?

word of the day : hey, let's get away