I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said, "Journeys end in lovers' meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had.

I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said, "Love is blind". Now, that is something I know to be true. For some, quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love. The cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. 

Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one-sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones. The walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And I have willingly loved that man for over three miserable years. The absolute worst years of my life! The worst Christmases, the worst Birthdays, New Year’s Eves brought in by tears and Valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life all because I've been cursed by being in love with a man who does not and will not love me back. Oh god, just the sight of him! Heart pounding, throat thickening. Absolutely can't swallow.
5 Responses
  1. kingster Says:

    Chill!!!
    What comes around will end soon. He doesn't loves means he's not appreciating you. Always be happy in your life rather than you love someone, that he don't deserves to love you more.
    I'll become the guardian of angel, to not let anyone to hurt you and stabbing into your heart.^^


  2. Aileen Lim Says:

    Aww... So sweet.. =) Hehe what to do... Life can be most disappointing, especially when the situation is beyond our control...

    Anyway, I got this from the movie The Holiday. Kate Winslet narrated this part at the start of the show. It's a very good movie.


  3. kingster Says:

    HeHehe^^ Tell me if anyone try to hurt you. Call me when you feel disappointed or sorrow.
    I think, I watched that movie too. Is it Cameron Diaz on this movie?


  4. Julie Ann Says:

    Love..
    either makes you or breaks you miserably..

    remember those nights we cried bitter hearts. and then came the time we ran loose in fear of it consuming us to death. but hey ho and behold, we're still very much alive, discounting the fact we may or may not be less miserable. So here's to hopes that, we will love ourselves more than we would ever love anyone else.

    "sexiness is about loving yourself in your most unlovable moments"
    -halle berry


  5. Aileen Lim Says:

    Kingster: Ya there's Cameron Diaz, Kate Winslet, Jude Law, and Jack Black. Very much an all-star cast. Hehe I've been watching reruns of it and it never gets old. A very charming show =)

    Julie Ann: "Miserably" is the operative word la. Ugh. But really, I won't mind loving someone wholeheartedly, just that in order to love wholeheartedly, the heart has to be made whole 1st. And loving yourself is a step in the right direction. And loving our God, the author and perfector.

    Indeed we are still very much alive. Whether in the midst of hurting or floating, that's life. You sound emo-angsty today. Hope all's well with you. *hughughug*