OMG!!!! i hate Adobe Illustrator!!!!

OMG!!!! if i actually knew how to use it, i won't be so aggravated but seriously, the only thing my Design lecturer thaught us to do was to make cartoon eyes...ok, maybe she taught us a lot more but who can retain so much in one seating??

sigh...i'm annoyed and slightly stressed out coz i gotta hand in that stupid magazine cover page i should be working on now. how the hell do i use Illustrator????

*happy thoughts....happy thoughts*

urgh...i have no happy thoughts...i AM thinking of eating ice cream though but it's a depressing thought coz there's no ice cream at home...

anyway, after 2 months of not blogging, this is the best i can do. toodles.

time and tide,
i'm with the love of my life.
but why is it hard to see his face?
why can't i recognise his voice?

Christmas is here,
i can only long.
long to be seen,
long to be recognised.

it's a few past Christmas,
i sit alone with an unnatural brokenness.
torn.


i want to feel like i belong. but if i do, would i be able to hold onto it?
i want to commit. but yet if i do, how long will it last? how long will I last?
it's hard not to waiver at the slightest hint of weakness.
it's hard not to lust after things that bring no benefit.
it's hard relying on something that is just too unpredictable.
can one differentiate stubbornness from perseverance?

word of the day : confidently wrong

yen, i'm sorry this is a very belated birthday wish...i know i have yet to call you...things just seem to happen at the weirdest of times...

girl, i'm glad that our friendship has brought us this far. i'm glad that you trust me enough to share your deepest thoughts and fears with me. 21 is just a number...what is truly significant is your experiences and the memories that carry you along this lifetime. let's toast to our hurts and trials because that's where we find happiness. let's dance to our achievements. let's celebrate life together.

dearest friend, i wish you every good wish i can possibly think of on your 21st birthday. May the Lord continue to guide your steps and light your way.

lots of love,
leen

so Singapore was a blast!

4 of us plus Becky's dad took the train down. an arduous 8-some hours on a train with nothing but sleeping chambers. awfully small, claustrophobic sleeping chambers. terribly uncomfortable upper-bunk beds. makes for 4 sleep deprived individuals on a mission to shop. well, the main purpose of our trip was to attend the Casting Crowns conference and concert.

we left KL on sunday night and reached monday morning. took a cab over to Becky's granma and aunt's place in Woodlands, which would be our place of residence for the first two nights. though the place was small, it was really cosy. they were both so hospitable! the granma woke up early to ta pau breakfast for us each morning. i kinda miss them now...

wednesday was the day of the conference. basically, it was a leader's conference. Mark Hall is a fantastic speaker. we only managed to attend the concert on thursday night and it was really good! they sound almost exactly the same live as they do on their CD.

wednesday would also be the day we packed up and moved to Becky's parents' condo. hehehe...that place...it was actually really REALLY nice but because the previous tenants only moved out a few days back, the place was bare. no fridge, no sofa, no TV...well, there was a bed for Beck's parents and 2 mattresses for the girls...that was it...and air-conditioning (which really, would be the only thing that mattered).

we left on friday night and reached KL saturday morning.

public transportation is a gift to posers and camwhores.
MOS night at Clarke Quay. that place is GORGEOUS. even if not for the clubbing and drinking, go there to check out the decor.

this trip was actually very kinky...spending that much time with a person can cast a light on hidden attributes...
i know i'm not giving a very detailed account but it's late...i'm tired...i have an early morning tomorrow...i just needed something to do before going to sleep.

so i've been tagged.

"orite la Ally, don't *smacks* k?"
a quick update, i've been working the past month for my parents. need to gather enough money to have a decently enjoyable trip to Singapore next week. woohoo! i suppose i'll have more updates when i get back...i suppose...


Part 1: On the Outside
Name: Ai Leen
Birth Date: 5th February
Current status: single
Eye Color: dark brown
Hair Color: dark brown with what once used to be violet highlights but now it's just...sigh....
Righty or Left: ambi
Zodiac Sign: aquarius

Part 2: On the Inside
Your Heritage: chinese
Your Fear: lizards...exploding things
Your Weaknesses: cute little fuzzy things, and my Supra
Your Perfect Pizza: lots of cheese, lots of meat, no onions

Part 3: Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up: "Shit! i overslept"
Your bedtime: tentative
Your most missed memory: Melbourne

Part 4: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi. but i hardly drink carbonated drinks anymore...
McD or Burger King: Burger King
Single or Group Dates: group. somehow it's just more fun...single dates will always be there
Adidas or Nike: nike
Lipton Tea or Nestea: nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla: choc
Cappucino or Coffee: coffee

Part 5: Do You...
Smoke: nope
Curse: i dunno...do i?

Part 6: In the Past Month
Drank alcohol: yup
Gone to the mall: yup
Been on stage: yup
Eaten sushi: yup...hehe funny story that...somehow it's always sushi at The Curve
Dyed your hair: nope

Part 7: Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game: stripping games always involve a certain level of drunkenness right? so i honestly can't remember
Changed who you were to fit in: i suppose we all do that at times

Part 8
Age you're hoping to be married: heh...that's a conversation for another day

Part 9: In A Guy/Girl
Best Eye Color: grey. so incredibly mystical...yum
Hair Color: doesn't matter
Short or Long Hair: doesn't matter

Part 10: What Were You Doing?
1 minute ago: answering Part 7 i guess
1 hour ago: washing my hair
4.5 hours ago: on the phone
1 month ago: probably yum cha-ing
1 year ago: mending a broken relationship while ending a problematic one

Part 11: Finish The Sentence
I love: speed
I feel: like frying nuggets to eat but i'm too damn lazy and it's too damn late
I hate: waiting
I hide: my dirty undies
I miss: the gti
I need: money