things that i want,
things that i need.
all in all are things that i'd like,
but all but one will soon be mine.

so i've become one of those people who let other people dictate their lives...

isn't it weird that pressure makes you perform better? i guess it's the fear of loss that drives people...

haven't been blogging for awhile coz i've been confused...confusion doesn't do well with blogging. how do you tell your life story when you yourself have no idea what's in your head...or have no idea how to arrange the content...

whatever...i'm still confused...

my new semester started 3 weeks ago. i've finally got all my subjects confirmed and i'm satisfied...i could be more satisfied but for now, i'm just satisfied...there's this one person in my class that's annoying every last vein in my body. everyday, my annoyance soars to a higher level. i'm not normally mean, but i really can't help it here...maybe i'm getting more cold hearted, maybe i'm easier to annoy now, or maybe he's just plain friggin ANNOYING!!

anyway, i take back what i said bout Sedaya not having any cute guys. i've been bumping into this guy at the cafeteria who looks like Josh Hartnet (!!!!)...deep breaths, people...JOSH HARTNET!!! he has that whole cool, quiet, bad boy thing down to an 'O'. serious shit...he's my McSteamy...

p/s: anyone up for shopping?
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here's something i've been thinking about...managed to work out this bit of confusion into something coherent but never managed to get an answer.

where's the line drawn between reasoning and denial?

i've always given people the benefit of the doubt, which is probably why i appear upbeat. but after all this while, could all my reasoning actually have been an escape from the truth? maybe that's why i don't question people...the whole ignorance thing.

are you confused? here's an example.
a stranger sitting at an opposite table appears to be taking a picture of you with his camera phone.

reasoning : he's just sms-ing but the screen's contrast is blocked out by the sun so he's holding the phone in a weird position

denial : he really is taking a picture of you but you can't confirm it so you ignore.

aih....this is really weird