*sigh of relief*

my hell weeks have officially ended. i would love to rant about all the deadlines i had to meet in a single week but i don't think i will today...i don't feel like ranting. i'm overjoyed actually...everything has ended. the boiling water has cooled. *huge sigh of relief* i can now go out because i want to and not because i need to get away from responsibility.

Easter Sunrise service today was great. even though i was lacking sleep, waking up at 4am didn't feel like a chore. in fact, it was a joy. being in ministry for so long can sometimes become a routine. serving during Christmas and Easter can sometimes become so mechanical. celebrating these occasions become so customary. i don't presume it's wrong to feel that way but i think sometimes we need to realise that when we celebrate these occasions, when we serve, it is to the Mighty One. do you ever celebrate a person's birthday without inviting the birthday person? the normal answer would be "no" right? anyway, Easter today was a joy because i wanted to celebrate this day with my Lord and it made all the difference. He's wonderful company.

OMG!!!! i hate Adobe Illustrator!!!!

OMG!!!! if i actually knew how to use it, i won't be so aggravated but seriously, the only thing my Design lecturer thaught us to do was to make cartoon eyes...ok, maybe she taught us a lot more but who can retain so much in one seating??

sigh...i'm annoyed and slightly stressed out coz i gotta hand in that stupid magazine cover page i should be working on now. how the hell do i use Illustrator????

*happy thoughts....happy thoughts*

urgh...i have no happy thoughts...i AM thinking of eating ice cream though but it's a depressing thought coz there's no ice cream at home...

anyway, after 2 months of not blogging, this is the best i can do. toodles.

time and tide,
i'm with the love of my life.
but why is it hard to see his face?
why can't i recognise his voice?

Christmas is here,
i can only long.
long to be seen,
long to be recognised.

it's a few past Christmas,
i sit alone with an unnatural brokenness.
torn.


i want to feel like i belong. but if i do, would i be able to hold onto it?
i want to commit. but yet if i do, how long will it last? how long will I last?
it's hard not to waiver at the slightest hint of weakness.
it's hard not to lust after things that bring no benefit.
it's hard relying on something that is just too unpredictable.
can one differentiate stubbornness from perseverance?

word of the day : confidently wrong

yen, i'm sorry this is a very belated birthday wish...i know i have yet to call you...things just seem to happen at the weirdest of times...

girl, i'm glad that our friendship has brought us this far. i'm glad that you trust me enough to share your deepest thoughts and fears with me. 21 is just a number...what is truly significant is your experiences and the memories that carry you along this lifetime. let's toast to our hurts and trials because that's where we find happiness. let's dance to our achievements. let's celebrate life together.

dearest friend, i wish you every good wish i can possibly think of on your 21st birthday. May the Lord continue to guide your steps and light your way.

lots of love,
leen

so Singapore was a blast!

4 of us plus Becky's dad took the train down. an arduous 8-some hours on a train with nothing but sleeping chambers. awfully small, claustrophobic sleeping chambers. terribly uncomfortable upper-bunk beds. makes for 4 sleep deprived individuals on a mission to shop. well, the main purpose of our trip was to attend the Casting Crowns conference and concert.

we left KL on sunday night and reached monday morning. took a cab over to Becky's granma and aunt's place in Woodlands, which would be our place of residence for the first two nights. though the place was small, it was really cosy. they were both so hospitable! the granma woke up early to ta pau breakfast for us each morning. i kinda miss them now...

wednesday was the day of the conference. basically, it was a leader's conference. Mark Hall is a fantastic speaker. we only managed to attend the concert on thursday night and it was really good! they sound almost exactly the same live as they do on their CD.

wednesday would also be the day we packed up and moved to Becky's parents' condo. hehehe...that place...it was actually really REALLY nice but because the previous tenants only moved out a few days back, the place was bare. no fridge, no sofa, no TV...well, there was a bed for Beck's parents and 2 mattresses for the girls...that was it...and air-conditioning (which really, would be the only thing that mattered).

we left on friday night and reached KL saturday morning.

public transportation is a gift to posers and camwhores.
MOS night at Clarke Quay. that place is GORGEOUS. even if not for the clubbing and drinking, go there to check out the decor.

this trip was actually very kinky...spending that much time with a person can cast a light on hidden attributes...
i know i'm not giving a very detailed account but it's late...i'm tired...i have an early morning tomorrow...i just needed something to do before going to sleep.