once again, Sedaya manages to achieve a higher level of incompetence...

wahlau...i hate Sedaya! i hate hate HATE Sedaya!! i came all this blady way for one morning class and class is CANCELED. waddafrik wei!!! and if it weren't for another classmate wandering around the halls, i wouldn't have known. apparently, my lecturer took a bunch of students from a different class for a field trip to an advertising firm...seeing as how this class that i'm taking only has 9 students, i guess she assumed that ALL the students from this class are also taking her other class...BUT I'M NOT! the other girl i found in the hall was supposed to go with them but i guess she's more sesat than me.

whatever la...i don't care if they all wanna take the whole damn month off to visit America without me. I DON'T CARE! just inform me about it and i can sleep in!! i'm soo annoyed....stupid stupid Sedaya....I HATE SEDAYA

anyway, i guess it's a good thing that i don't have class. i can now finish up some of my Journalism work.

oh...here's something amusing...it happened about 3 weeks ago but i was afraid it would be embarrassing so i didn't tell anyone bout it...but, since i've seen it and can be assured that it'll only take some serious hawk eyes to notice, i can't help but share =)

i'm in a KFC ad. harhar...it's sooo superbly embarrassing but don't care la. it's for the experience...i only got paid RM100 for 7 hours of waiting around throughout the wee hours of the morning but...don't care la. i can now say that "i do TV commercials". heehee...I'M FAMOUS!

and guess what...prepare to be proud of me. i washed a car...*basks in moment of silent awe* i think it's been more than half a decade since i've had to wash a car. andrew lent me his car for 2 weeks now and already then did it need a wash. it was so dusty...and covered in red bird poop. i'm so proud of myself...and the car. it's now road worthy. the paint color is now truly silver and not champagne. i can now open the door without having to carefully avoid bird poop and dust. i can now see through the windscreen clearly. and that's after washing without using car shampoo...just wait la. i'll get it sparkling again in no time...

word of the day : there's confidence in uncertainty

i knew this was gonna be a bad day the moment the McDs sauce dispenser was out of chilli sauce...

i almost got into an accident...sheesh...i know it was completely my fault but when you start using "fuck you"s and such, i can't help but shout back...

can i blame my lack of alertness on the fact that i'm still half asleep? i missed my 1st class...stupid jam on that Eastin highway...what's it called? so annoying...i could've slept in! had to rush coz i needed to print my article for my Journalism class. printers take awhile to warm up right, so i left it there...came back 10 minutes later to find that my printer was out of black ink...*curses* how the hell am i supposed to hand up my work now?? the printer could have alerted me bout my ink shortage before it went empty right?? couldn't print shit...*stupid stupid*

anyway, i wrote this halfway last night.
ever notice how the people you take pictures with affect how you look?

i have...somehow when i'm with people i love, i photograph better...maybe not all the time la but there are a select few pictures that i just look great in. well, not just for me but other people too. been blog surfing while waiting and i just had to take notice of it...the person looked so beautiful next to her closest friend.

maybe it's coz we're more comfortable with that other person...maybe it's coz we're genuinely smiling for the camera when with that other person...maybe it's coz there's so much love and care between the two that it reflects on the camera lens...

p/s: day just got a bit better. Mr Josh Hartnet just walked into the comp lab. *smile*

isn't it weird how often we have bad days...

they play that Daniel Powter song on the radio at least 10 times a day per station and i find myself being able to relate almost everytime. how bad's a day gotta be before that song stops being uplifting...?

does hiding feelings actually equal deceit?

by giving someone else priority, am i being naive?

by giving someone else priority, am i actually doing the person a favour while i hold a grudge?

can the unspoken be heard?

can I hear the unspoken? or am i choosing not to hear...?

why is it so much easier to ask things that are unimportant and neglect the things that matter?
maybe coz it matters too much to put it at risk...?


word of the day : the fear of losing everything will lose you everything

things that i want,
things that i need.
all in all are things that i'd like,
but all but one will soon be mine.

so i've become one of those people who let other people dictate their lives...

isn't it weird that pressure makes you perform better? i guess it's the fear of loss that drives people...

haven't been blogging for awhile coz i've been confused...confusion doesn't do well with blogging. how do you tell your life story when you yourself have no idea what's in your head...or have no idea how to arrange the content...

whatever...i'm still confused...

my new semester started 3 weeks ago. i've finally got all my subjects confirmed and i'm satisfied...i could be more satisfied but for now, i'm just satisfied...there's this one person in my class that's annoying every last vein in my body. everyday, my annoyance soars to a higher level. i'm not normally mean, but i really can't help it here...maybe i'm getting more cold hearted, maybe i'm easier to annoy now, or maybe he's just plain friggin ANNOYING!!

anyway, i take back what i said bout Sedaya not having any cute guys. i've been bumping into this guy at the cafeteria who looks like Josh Hartnet (!!!!)...deep breaths, people...JOSH HARTNET!!! he has that whole cool, quiet, bad boy thing down to an 'O'. serious shit...he's my McSteamy...

p/s: anyone up for shopping?
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here's something i've been thinking about...managed to work out this bit of confusion into something coherent but never managed to get an answer.

where's the line drawn between reasoning and denial?

i've always given people the benefit of the doubt, which is probably why i appear upbeat. but after all this while, could all my reasoning actually have been an escape from the truth? maybe that's why i don't question people...the whole ignorance thing.

are you confused? here's an example.
a stranger sitting at an opposite table appears to be taking a picture of you with his camera phone.

reasoning : he's just sms-ing but the screen's contrast is blocked out by the sun so he's holding the phone in a weird position

denial : he really is taking a picture of you but you can't confirm it so you ignore.

aih....this is really weird